Short stick

Today wasn't as bad as I thought.

Don't get me wrong, I'm totally tired. I ended up staying awake until about 2:00am and then got up around 8:00am. Yup. My life in a nutshell, insomnia then springing into action for work. This can't really be good for my health right?! 

I was happy to see some familiar faces today! They sent over two techs from the other hospital today, so I had extra buddies. It's been really nice to have time to see them and catch up a bit. I don't feel so alone and isolated when I have people around me that make me comfortable. Staci brought me over some Scooby Snacks that Craig sent her with. My friend Craig loves Scooby Snacks and jelly beans. I brought him and Staci some Sweet Tarts for Easter last time I was there, so he's returning the favor. Super sweet. We weren't really that busy today, and I had plenty of things to get around and do.

We all went out for a walk while our machine was getting a tune up. So we got some exercise in while we were at work, and the weather was pretty nice. I'm still having anxiety over my appointment tomorrow. Cody told me that she'd get Dr. Cusimano in to talk to me tomorrow, so I'm hoping all goes well. I really just think I'm in some kind of a funk. I guess I could attribute part of the weight gain to exercising more. The whole muscle weighs more than fat theory, which is probably true. I've been working really hard on getting back into shape and thinning out, I can't get too upset over having a hiccup I suppose.

You're always your own worst enemy. No one is really harder on me, than myself. It's just something that I'm going to have to try and get over. How exactly are you supposed to get over that? I've dealt with the whole self sabotage thing, and I'm dancing on the other side of it. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that to some degree I feel like I'm always falling short of the big goal. Weird right? It's a terrible way to think, but my next lesson I'm going to have to learn.

Anyway, I'm stuck doing laundry for the rest of the night! Off to my appointment early tomorrow morning! God have mercy on the scale! LOL