Horrifying reality

Something you would see, on CNN.

I've always considered the small town I live in, to be quaint and harmless. Until recent years, the crime rate has gone up. It really makes perfect sense. Where there is economic struggles and poverty, there is crime. Just not this type of crime.

Monday was nothing short of profound horror that soared through the area. A local physician's assistant, one that I am familiar with committed the most brutal crime. It always instills an indescribable fear, when someone snaps this bad. It is all too much of a reality of how you don't really know anyone. In the past few years I've noticed a lot of the psych patients that come through. It just becomes all to real, that it could be you at any time. And by this I mean depression and needing psychological aide; not murdering someone.

When I heard about what this man did, my skin crawled. I was brought to tears. It is so horrific for me, that I can't even write on here what he committed. I don't understand. I just don't. How can such evil exist in the world? Such hate that swallows someone's soul completely? We all have to face the reality of good and evil I suppose. Evil wouldn't be evil, if it wasn't really bad. I went over to Jacki's Monday night to have some quality girl time. Even then, I couldn't get it off my mind. 


Later on, I found that sleep was impossible. Marissa and I even got chocolate milk on the way home. I really wanted it of course, but it was also a comfort thing. Sleep didn't take over until about 4:00am, and even then I woke up sweating. Some things are just too hard to forget. It's like waking up in mid thought. Has that ever happened to you? I'm still trying to wrap my head around the evil that exists in the world. The reasons why people seem to not value life. Breaks my heart, every time.