Decision making

I LOATHE MAKING DECISIONS.

Especially when they involve too many factors, and not a lot of time. I've been faced with making some crucial decisions in the past few years. You'd think I'd be getting better at this, but I'm just not. It's grueling. The sheer thought of perhaps making the wrong decision and being worse off than you were, is enough to slow the process down. Even though getting advice from other people is super nice, only you can make that choice for what's best in your life. BOO. I HATE IT!

Needless to say, I was going to base an important decision on emotion. I didn't have enough time to decide what I was going to do. Only about a day to seriously think. Hien has been telling me over and over again, that I complain about the same things every time I  have a meltdown. Which okay fine, some things are yes repetitive. She advised me to do a pro and con list, which I usually do anyway. There were to many factors on each side to make a clear decision. When in doubt, I had to rely on my gut and decide that making a decision based on new info and emotion was not a good combination. Only time will tell if I made the right one. 

Things are never always perfect in life of course. Some things you can change, and some you just can't. The whole saying, you reap what you sow is right on. Rarely have I ever been let down by listening to my gut. I'm just crossing my fingers and hoping that it was the right one. Either way, I am thankful that I have a job and most everything that I need for now. What matters to me at this point, is my sanity. And that sanity, always comes with a price.