NYE 2012

Another year when I have to remember to date my papers correctly!

I'm excited for NYE. Tomorrow my friends and I are all driving up to Marissa's to celebrate NYE at her house. Her parents won't be home, they'll be in Chicago so we're all looking forward to it. Not that he parents aren't fun, we all kind of wish her dad was there to celebrate but that leaves the entire house to us!

The girls were busy making party favors and such and we're all preparing for the festivities. I'm not really worried about the whole drinking situation. I've been used to not drinking at all for so long, it doesn't even bother me. For the most part, we are making our own food and snacks. There will probably be stuff that I'm not supposed to eat, and I'll do my best to stay away from those foods.

I'm ready for this year to be done. I feel like I've gotten the most I could from it. Everyone seems to make new resolutions, but I feel like I've already made them and intend to stick to them throughout the rest of my years. Being healthy is everything to me. Healthy inside and out. I've gone through so much in my life already, and it's finally time for me to move on and become my own person and have control over a life that is mine. This year I'm pledging to be selfish for my own sake. To take care of my needs and to attentively keep track of what is important to me, especially my feelings. I'm not one to gripe all the time about the woes of the world, but my feelings do matter. I worry so much about how everyone else feels, and not enough about how I feel.

Things are changing everyday around me. I've yet to truly regret anything that I've done or made decisions on. Even when times have been rough on me, I am thankful I had the experience now versus later in my adult life. Young people are resilient, I feel like the older people get, the less opportunities they have to be able to process things as quickly I guess. Maybe I'm wrong, but I definitely don't want to wait to have a mid life crisis.

I've been ready to start my life for so long. I'm not going to wait around on someone else's watch for it to start. This is the first day of my life.