Fishing much?

Don't know what I was expecting.

Friday I worked over at my sister hospital. It was really nice to work with and see all my friends over there. It's a bit of a different world, being as it is a trauma center. My "home" site is still a hospital, but a different type of pace entirely. We've been called "the land of milk and honey", because things aren't as difficult as they are over there. But hey! They all had the chance to come over and work at my place at one time or another. We weren't really busy at all to tell you the truth. It was "wear red day" throughout the entire organization, in support of cardiac care month. It's nice to see that most of us did participate, but the other people probably forgot. I wasn't sure what to expect. Most people have told me that I've been looking good. Almost every week when I come back, everyone asks me how my appointment went, how'd the weigh in go and compliment me on how I look. I guess because the others haven't seen me in a few months I was hoping they would say something about my weight loss. NEGATIVE GHOST WRITER! 

Not a single person over there said anything at all about it. Granted, not many of them know I'm on this program let alone writing a blog. I've only shared my blog with a select few close friends and close ones from work. I feel like I'm pouring my heart out on here, whether it be bitching, crying or just generally being open. Something that I'm not ready to share publicly with everyone...even though I've been public about my actual weight. I guess I was just expecting someone to say "WOW! You look great!" or something like that. No worries.

It's weird, because I wrote a post a while back about self sabotage. That for some reason, when people say those things to me, I immediately go to junk food hell. I scaled myself today and it was not pretty. According to it, I gained back a little under 4lbs. Rhonda assured me it was just from water weight, and I hope that it is. I do, after all have my lovely friend that visits me every month. I'm getting tired of using that as an "excuse", but the girls at the office assure me that you can in fact gain 5lbs from your cycle alone. I just don't like to keep excuses rolling ya know what I mean?

Either way, it wasn't the worst day ever because no one said anything to me about it. This just means the next time they see me, I'll be looking slimmer and they'll definitely have something to say then!