Whaaaat

Is it just me, or is everything in a state of "what?!"

I have to admit, current events however crazy they may be are slightly amusing. I came home from vacation and decided to make a few changes in my life. Mostly based on how I choose to interact with people. It is strange the way we deal with things, really deal with them. Some people choose to ignore them totally, some take the path of getting angry quickly, and some people just wait and plot. I've fallen under all those categories at one point or another. With age I've been able to pick and choose my battles wisely. It just gets sticky sometimes. 

I've noticed that a lot of my friends, are going through some sort of a funk. Mostly it involves the emotional sides of life. Which is almost one of the hardest things to tackle ever! How do we as humans deal with things effectively? You learn from example right? What kinds of examples have been around you? Are they good ones? If they're not good ones, you need to learn from them. Don't make the same mistakes you've seen over and over again. The only way to change your circumstance, is to commit to CHANGING IT UP. They say that insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different outcome. You won't get the outcome you desire, unless you are willing to CHANGE! HELLO!

And yes, for all you skeptics out there. It's as easy as that. I'm going through some things right now that I'm definitely trying to change up. Obviously I've been going about it entirely the wrong way. So I've chosen to sit back, and try to analyze a bit. I think, therefore I over think of course. It's better to be prepared before making a decision. Don't go into things blindly, and calculate your approach. Sometimes we take things to heart so much, that we get lost in it. Something as small as an act or a comment can send us spinning into a whirlwind of trouble. 

Patience is something that I've learned to deal with. To tell you the truth, I really hate it! I like to say I'm patiently impatient. It's true, aren't we all. I am proud to tell you that I've noticed a lot of my friends growing right in front of my eyes. It's the small feats they make, that give me that warm feeling in my stomach. Just because someone close to you makes the right choice, doesn't mean they all do of course. I don't understand why some people choose to stay in destructive lifestyles. Why and how is it worth it? Do you get more happiness out of your misery? Am I indeed doing this whole thing called "life" wrong? Bottom line is, we make the choices for our lives. Not anyone else. As long as you're taking ownership of your choices, I suppose it is more acceptable. I don't know, just on another rant.

Rollin'

Rollin' baby, keep it rollin'

Can I tell you all how much I HATE WHEY PROTEIN. I just fucking do. After a while, you think or trick yourself into thinking it's not so bad. Well I'm sorry to tell you all that it IS in fact, that bad. It doesn't matter what you do to m ask the taste, it will always have this lingering after taste to it. Am I right or what?

Either way, you have to keep the ball rolling. Once you commit to something, you really need to stick with it. Yo! How will you have anty future without u owe it to yourself. If you're not choosing to change your life for yourself, do it for the tomorrow you could have. Think about all the things in your life, that you desperately wish you could have done, OR could be doing. There's so much life out there, and it's a damn shame to miss it over something you have control over. Making changes in your life to become a better you, will always be a life long process. You have to commit to it, or not I guess. Either way, it's up to YOU. 

Shout out to Lisa! We went out a few weeks ago, and she told me she headed on over to my blog to check it out. She was looking for some inspiration and encouraging words, and thought something was wrong. How could my last post have been in August?! Something MUST be wrong with the blogger site right?! Nope. Something was wrong with ME!

I've enjoyed blogging very much. It's become increasingly difficult for me to keep up with it, when my procrastination level is through the roof. Either way, please don't think just because I haven't posted means that I've stopped my regiment. That's not the case at all. I've been working really hard on my own and with my health coach through work. Christina is really awesome. She sends me sites and walks me through some of the tougher health related questions I have for her. 

I'm not really too anxious to make another appointment at the office to tell you the truth. Between life and vacation, it kind of broke me. It's hard to not spend the money and just go, but I've been doing this for a while and am confident that I can do without a few more appointments. Just until I get back on my feet. I'm happy to report that I lost seven pounds during vacation, and last week I hit my 45lbs mark! Can you believe it? I'm still having a hard time!

Hide and Seek

I'm back!

Good God. I know what you're thinking, umm hello where the hell have you been! Fair question I might add! So lately things have been crazy of course! My visits to the office have come damn near to a stop, and I'll explain to you why.

So September went by super quickly. For weeks I had been trying to schedule my appointments with Dr. Cusimano herself, instead of always having them with the nurse. I'm really supposed to have a visit with Dr. Cusimano every like six weeks. She has been cancelling her appointments with me since August, due to illness. It is totally understandable, but super frustrating at the same time. I had blood work drawn in June, and have yet to get my results. I usually get my results with my actual doctor appointments, so the whole thing is super frustrating. Not a great excuse to keep punking out of appointments, but whatever. There it is. I stopped scheduling them, and I need to start again. Don't get me wrong, the nurse visits are fine. It's just not the same. They span for about 10-15 minutes long, and they're not in depth as appointments with Dr. Cusimano herself. 

A big reason of why I wanted to start this weight loss, was to look great for my cousin's wedding. Which, I totally did!  I'll write another post about this later though. For now, just wanted to write a little something to announce I'M BACK!