Seeing is believing!

See Thao, see Thao make healthy choices, see Thao melt!

After being out last night, I was super tired. Most everyone thought I was hungover, judging by the look on my face when I walked in holding my Gatorade. Even on my work weeks, I still obviously go out. I need to have a life, even if it's just meeting up to hang out. I've been VERY good about not staying out 'til the wee hours of the morning. Still, some weeks it catches up with me fore sure! My co-workers are used to seeing me like this on the weekends. It's one of those looks like--no one talk to me for at least ten minutes! They usually leave me alone...except for the one person I'm having issues with. This person just never gets the freaking hint, but whatever. I've learned to ignore them pretty much entirely and just say one worded answers. Cut things short. No, I have not confronted them yet. Keep in mind the word yet. In all honesty, it wasn't as bad as the last weekend, but I'm willing to let it go for another rotation and see what happens. Don't need trouble when I'm looking for other opportunities within the company. 

A good friend of mine is leaving work. She got a job at a private doctor's office and I couldn't be more happier for her! I, along with many others are super sad to see her go--but so glad we had the privilege of working and getting to know her. She came over today to work part of the weekend, and she complimented me saying she noticed I had dropped a lot of weight! I was so excited! The first thing that Nikki and Marissa said when they saw me, was "you're tiny!". I don't know about tiny, but I'm definitely smaller than I used to be! It feels so good to have people notice. You look at yourself in the mirror everyday, and don't see all phases of weight loss and gain. When you're as big as I was, it just was something lingering in the back of your mind. "I know I'm overweight, but I don't look that bad" kind of talk. Well YOU DO. At least that's how I feel about it now, especially because now I SEE THE DIFFERENCE. My clothes are fitting better, and I'm feeling entirely better about myself. I'm still worried that I won't drop another 20lbs by May, only because it's taken me so long to drop the first 20. 

Speaking of which, I miscalculated! I thought I only lost 18lbs and when  I looked through my log, I was wrong! I'm officially at 20lbs melted away, and going strong onto the next 20! I've spent a lot of time looking for weight charts, something that I can just plug information into and have it graphed out. I guess I could just use Excel, but I'm too lazy to figure out how to set up all the cells. The Android Market had an app I downloaded, but I found a REALLY awesome site! WeightChart.com is my perfect online tool! It literally tracks your weight loss on a graph, and you can set weight goals. Based on your logs you can punch into it, it records your BMI, percentage of fat, how many calories you're supposed to intake etc. It's a really great tool for anyone interested in visually seeing it on a chart.

My personal weight chart

You can also upload pictures onto your account too, so you can SEE your progress! I haven't done this yet, but I totally plan to. It's totally personal and private. You of course don't have to make your account public. There are others on the site that do, and it's kind of cool to follow their stories. No fabrication of any sort, everyone isn't losing all their weight. There are some charts I checked out where people gained, lost tons and slowly gained it back. It's a great tool for anyone to use. A good visual motivator, almost like a timeline log of your weight loss journey. Combined with my blogging, it's a permanent visual record that I CAN SUCCEED.