It can't always be fun

Ohhh right!

This blog is about losing weight! Weight that seems to destroy my moods! UGH. SO I go for my appointment tomorrow, and I am not looking forward to it. The first thing I did when I got home, was hop on the scale. My sister is smart, she doesn't have a scale at her apartment.

According to my scale, I have gained weight back. I refuse to allow myself to tell all of my readers how much I "gained back", until I got to my appointment tomorrow. This whole weight fluctuation is enough to make me SCREAM LIKE THE CRAZED NON MELTING GIRL I AM!

It seriously is incredibly frustrating! I've increased my exercise and walked TONS this weekend, not to mention hauling a ton of crap with me! I'm sure that I burned off more calories than I took in! And if I by chance didn't, I burned at least half of them off! The whole muscle weighs more than fat thing, is just annoying at this point. I was all excited too.

My sister hasn't seen me in a month. When she saw me she told me I looked really good. I had on a little pink mango dress with an open back for the birthday party. It has thick criss cross bands in the back, so a triangle sized portion of your back is bare. It's super cute. Although I still have a little rollage back there (back fat is EXTREMELY difficult to lose), I thought why the hell not and wore it. It wasn't until we got back to her apartment when I changed into my shorts and tee shirt. I went around to where she was standing brushing her teeth in the bathroom to ask a question, and she freaked out. She said she didn't realize how much smaller I got until just then. Keep in mind, my dress did cover up my legs, booty and belly. I was SO excited to hear her say that! She was REALLY surprised at how much smaller I got.

Most of my girlfriends tell me I look smaller, and I feel like I do too. I just can't help that I let a small square shaped electronic number machine made by the Devil himself, get to me! How many of you out there think the scale is your biggest nemesis? Because that's exactly how I feel! It is a CONSTANT struggle to lose and maintain your weight loss. No matter what, you should always strive to better yourself. I'm putting more effort in this, than I ever have before. So why do I feel so discouraged? 

I'm blaming this on constipation by the way...