That's like asking:
How many licks does it take to get to the tootsie roll, inside of a tootsie pop!
THE WORLD, MAY NEVER KNOW.
Sunday came by fast, and sadly all I wanted to do was be a sloth all day. Hien got up early to meet up with one of her friends from college for breakfast down the street. Whitney and I slept in, and we both really needed it too! My mom got us up and made breakfast for us. We lounged around most of the morning and prepared to go to the bus station to see them off. It always makes me sad when they have to leave. Coming to visit on the weekends, is never enough time. They really are only there for one full day, considering they're travelling on Friday and Sunday. Definitely not enough time. That's why I despise going to the city. It's a lot of work for such a short amount of time. I just can't justify taking that awful bus trip. Keep in mind, I get super car sick. That's why I like driving everywhere. No car sickness for me when I'm driving. Make me sit in the back seat for a ride longer than 45mins and I guarantee you'll be sorry you didn't let me sit shotty.
What is a family visit without fighting? My sister and I have this GREAT thing where we fight every time we see each other. Doesn't matter if it's a day or a weekend, we will fight one way or another. I was feeling really guilty about it later, because it stresses out my Mom. No one wants to see their kids fight. It just drives me crazy that when Hien is home, I literally have to cater to her every need. When I'm in the city, she makes me do shit on my own. She makes me take the subway by myself to Port Authority, which is fine now because I've done it so many times I know what stop to get off at. Still, it's the principle that it's effing rude. Who doesn't see their company off properly? MY SISTER, that's who. It drives me insane. She's always yelling at me to be an adult, which I think I'm MORE of an adult than her fuck you very much! Drives me bananas. She struck a nerve with me, when she didn't plan properly for this weekend. She had things to do, which entailed me going entirely out of my way to appease her. I've been having REAL issues with being a chauffeur lately to EVERYONE, and I'm TIRED OF BEING A TAXI SERVICE. I understand that yes, it's upstate and there is no public transportation but have a little consideration! If we're out, get all the shit you need to get done in one trip. Otherwise you're being a serious pain in my ass and I don't appreciate it.
I have control issues, big surprise there. I have issues with not having my car. I don't like to be at the mercy of other people. Especially when I'm out at night and don't want to get stranded somewhere. It's different when you're in a relationship with someone and they do most of the driving. You're with them anyway, and plus he never stranded me anywhere! Either way, driving myself is a completely different story than driving everyone else places.
No more soapbox for me. I got Whitney to the bus station, and took Hien about an hour or two later. I took her where she needed to go, and that was that. I stopped being an asshole about the whole thing and decided it was better to just fold and do it. Whatever. I spend the rest of the day spending quality time with my Mom. Mom has been super depressed lately, because I LIVE WITH HER and I am never home. Seriously, I'm never home. During my work weeks, I literally go home to sleep and shower. My parents hardly see me. They're gone when I get up and they're sleeping when I get home. It was nice to spend some real quality time with her. We cooked a bit together and watched movies for the rest of the night.
Over the years, I've come to realize how important family is. No matter how many times you want to throw bricks at their heads or strangle them. Family is family, and no matter how you look at it---they'll always be there for you. It's been a real eye opener in the past few years. Your parents are really just people, that are as fucked up as you are. We're all trying to make it in our own way. It's become increasingly important for me to spend time with my family, and make the most out of our visits. That's why, I decided to put my ego aside and to not be mad at Hien anymore. Everything in moderation. If I spent too much time with her, I'd grow to resent it and get in more fights with her. My relationship with my mother has gotten really good over the past few months. I'm starting to realize that the past life regression I had, really helped me out a lot with her. It was important for me to see things at a different angle then before. I've been more calm about things and understanding. I just wish I had realized this years ago, I wouldn't have felt like I've wasted so much time.
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