Thanks, but no thanks.

Is usually how it goes for me.

I wasn't feeling that great throughout the night. I was in and out of sleep, due to some abdominal pain. It comes and goes, but it's nothing to worry about. Maybe it was just the weekend catching up with me. I fully expected to hear something from the auto shop today about my sun visor. Rick, the guy who estimated my car was going to call me when they got the visor in this week. He was hoping to get it either today or Tuesday. I'd rather have them put it on for me tomorrow, considering I go back to work this week. I really don't want to wait another week to have it installed. Either way, I suppose I can come into work late one of these days, if worst comes to worst.

A while back ago, in October actually I  had submitted a transfer request form at work. There is a new facility opening up down the road from the hospital, and it's the company's new baby. The floor plans and functionality of the place sounds super nice and exciting. A lot of people have put in for the jobs, and we have all gone in for some interviewing. I kept a lot of this to myself, because I didn't want any jinxes. It doesn't really matter anymore now though. We all had preliminary interviews, which lead to second ones for a few. They said they would e-mail us or call us either way. When the e-mails came pouring in on everyone, I was interested to see if I'd get one. I'm not desperate to get out of where I am. I really enjoy the shift I'm on, but it's one of those things. If you don't put in and try for something, you'll never know. I would consider myself a really great catch for any company. Despite personality issues that I've had with people, I am one hell of a worker. I am dependable, hard working, and very knowledgeable in what I do. I've been working for five years, and have called into work once. I'm never late to work, and I don't leave early. My work background I feel like has been pretty impressive for someone my age. I was promoted a little over a year into the job, and have excelled in getting my credentials for the areas I work in.

Long story short, I never got a second interview. I figured I'd just ride it out. I didn't really tell anyone at work, because it is disappointing and wee bit embarrassing. I'm not sure why others were chosen over me, but that's the way the cookie crumbles. Anyway, I got a phone call today from the employment office. Maggie informed me today that the managers have chosen to pursue other candidates for the position at this time. I politely thanked her, and hung up the phone. In all honesty, I started laughing right after I hung up. I freaking applied for this job six months ago, and you're just telling me NOW thanks, but no thanks? Gee, that's a whole heap full of consideration. I had already come to terms with the fact, I wasn't going anywhere. Why do you think I worked so hard to get this personality situation at work ironed out with this other kid? Because in my heart of hearts, I knew I wasn't going anywhere. Better to focus on your current situation, then prepare yourself for something that is so unsure.

I had my employee evaluation last week before I left, and it was good. I of course have a few things to work and improve on, but it's nothing I didn't know about. My department manager did express to me that she was thankful to have me as an employee. I briefly talked to her about a few things, and she didn't know I wasn't chosen for a second interview. They had no control over which people they picked, so it really wasn't up to her. Either way, I do have some serious relief knowing.

The biggest thing that I have to tackle next, is what my fate will be in the company. They are filling the positions they have lost, internally which means I can be knocked off my shift entirely. I can be sent to the sister hospital and be stuck on a crappy shift. I really don't care either way where I work. I just want to stay on my shift. If I get knocked off this rotation I'm on, my whole vacation schedule will be ruined. It puts me at some serious risk missing out on days and my plans for going to Han's wedding. Luckily, I had made sure my supervisor knew what I needed for my October trip. I covered my butt, but requesting all the calendar days I needed, including the weeks I already had off. Crossing my fingers at this point, they won't dismantle my 7 on 7 off. You never can tell though, I'll have to cross that bridge when I get there.

I can't speak for everyone, but I know this. Being turned down for jobs, suck no matter how bad you want them. Even if your heart isn't dead set on it, it'll always make you wonder WHY you weren't considered. There's literally no point in sitting around speculating why. And in return, there's no point in me going and asking. They won't give me a straight answer anyway. My plan for now is to just roll with it. This certainly isn't going to effect how hard or the way I work on a daily basis. Don't let one disappointment ruin your work ethic. Because it is that same work ethic, that might get you to another place!