You can go your own way

Go your own way!

So thankful another work week is over. Fall seems to be the time for changes to happen. Moving on to bigger and better things seems to be the trend. Which, I can't really say that I blame. Maybe it's because as children we all start going to school around Fall, which makes it feel like the right time of year to start something new and fresh. New Years resolutions never have really appealed to me, but Fall--ahh the Fall just feels right.

Tomorrow, I meet my fate for this week at the scale. Hoping that it will be nice to me this time, and show me a lower number! This journey hasn't been easy at all, not going to lie. Anything that is worth doing, takes a lot of dedication and will power. I've spent so long feeling like I've been trapped in this body. I mean it when I say I don't ever want to get back to this weight again. This is the largest I've been in my entire life. Most people say I carry my weight well. I think it's about time to fess up and say how much I weigh.

September 2010, Weight=208lbs
Umm...arm flab, yeah working on getting rid of it lol!

Don't let the smile fool you! Sure thanks to Calvin Klein, you probably wouldn't be able to tell I was over 200lbs. It seriously grosses me out to think that I weighed that much. I was so excited when I bought this dress. One of my besties, Robb who always tells me the truth helped me pick it out. It was a size 14, which amazed me because hello it's CK! You know how brands are, hit or miss. Let's face it people, there is NO universal size, sizes vary brand to brand. I was fluctuating between sizes 14-16. Couldn't seem to find the right fit. No matter what size I wore, I usually had a muffin top or spare tire. What's a spare tire you ask? Welp, what a spare tire means to me is the pouch/slab of fat that sits right above your who-ha. I haven't even had kids yet! How embarassing...lol. 

When I began seeing Dr. Cusimano, I weighed in at 205lbs. Not bad, I lost a few pounds from last year big whoop. Needless to say for the past 2 weeks I've been still in the 200 range, thanks to my lovely iron supplements. I can't even express to you all how much hitting the 100's means to me. I still have a long way to goal, but I know I can do it.

I'm getting back into shape, for me, not anyone else. I'm doing it for all the right reasons. Sitting at 25, I'm in the prime of my life. There are still so many things for me to do, to learn and experience. I'm headed for a fresh start. There are no do overs in life, you can't go back to square one. But--you can start fresh once you leave the square you're on.

So hate on haters,

try and break me down by taking smack about how big I am,

or how much I actually weigh. I'm not ashamed anymore.

Because the one thing I know for certain is--

I can LOSE weight, but you won't ever lose your hateful attitude.