Munchie mania!

Guys, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't understand.

Sometimes I hate hormones, actually...I hate them all the time. Why does it have to effect us so much? I mean PMS is bad enough, but then when you're pregnant they go out of whack, and then when you go through menopause. Whoever said being a woman was easy?! Slow down there killed (for you men reading, if any...) I never said it wasn't easy being a man either!

Every month around the same time, I turn into an unstoppable machine. I'm either flying around at work hustling my butt off, or you can find me day dreaming about eating really bad shit. Most of the time when I'm on my cycle, it happens to land on a work week. I've grown to appreciate this, because I can at least control it a little bit. If I only bring supplies with me that are healthy, I feel A WHOLE LOT better. This week I packed fruits and veggies. When I got cravings for the munchies, I went to my stash of healthy foods. Don't get me wrong, it was AWFUL. Not that bad I suppose, but when you really want something bad like junk food hell bad--the rabbit food is the pits!

So why does my body and brain hate me so? What have I done to them?! Besides abusing the shit out of it by eating horrible food, alcohol, and not exercising enough? LOL. Ahh we got to laugh at ourselves at some point right? Either way, I'm coping with this time of the month a lot better than I used to. Before, I'd totally eat you out of house and home! Putting limits on yourself is very difficult, but do the best you can! Luckily, I have a great support team and a goal to keep working towards. 

Trust me. Even though you bought a round trip ticket to munchie mania,

it's not likely you'll come back out of it.

Keep pushing yourself to make the healthier choices in your life. My thought process was completely messed up before. It was all about justifying what I ate. "Oh, I can eat this. I'll just work out an extra half hour at the gym". How about no? No. Don't do it to yourself. If you allow yourself to justify one unhealthy decision, you'll continue to make more of them. I've been there, and it blows. And I'm trying my damnedest to stop!

Hulking out

Sorry I haven't posted in four days.

INTERNET PROBLEMS SUCK

I've spent the past four freaking days trying to get my internet to work. Time Warner Cable just about dominates this area, and do you think I could get the bitch back onlline?! I've had my modem for about five years now and have never had a problem with it, until I upgraded my system to "turbo". My dad's lifeline is the internet. Without it, he gets real cranky. My connection started going in and out around March. Three modems, two wireless routers, and a power surge connector later--and I'm online. ONLY TEMPORARILY I CAN PUT FREAKING MONEY ON IT. I'm literally typing for my life right now, in case I get cut off!

After turning green and ugly, I have another service tech coming out to the house on Wednesday when I'm off. He better fix this blasted thing, or I'm going to chuck the modem out the window and run over it with my car! YES, NOT EXAGGERATING. Computer problems are the PITS. I'm freaking reliant on the internet. I know it's sad, but we all have some kind of dependence on our gadgets right? Where would I be without my smartphone? Probably lost somewhere for sure, literally.

The past few days have been horrible. I'm batting a thousand. Maybe it's because I haven't fully rested since my week excursion? This week will be a test to that. I plan on staying in town to spend some time resting/catching up with my home peeps. We'll see!

YOU DON'T WANT TO MAKE ME ANGRY!
Sometimes, I'm The Hulk's counterpart lol

SUPER SHORT ENTRY. STARTING THE NEXT ONE IN A DASH!

Vitawhat?!

Can we say LAZY?!

Confession: I haven't been taking my vitamins for like three weeks. I know, I know. SHAME ON ME! I just keep forgetting to take them. UGH. I have this routine thing, where I put ALL the vitamins I need into a denture cup and toss it in my purse. This way I can take them wherever I am. Well, needless to say I've been ridiculously lazy and haven't refilled my container. I can for sure tell the difference. I feel like I'm tired, and I need to catch up on taking them! Especially because I have blood work ordered for a few weeks from now. Cheating is totally not okay, but I don't want to take my blood work if I don't have the vitamins in my system. I need to figure out effectively how I'm doing from a statistical aspect.

It's been SUPER nice outside, what's not to like? The humidity in this area is beyond out of control. It's super hot and sticky, and when you breathe it's like a thick nasty feeling. I'm almost glad I'm working this week, because we keep the AC on constantly to cool the equipment. I've been slacking also on going to the gym as much as I should. During my work weeks, try to go after work. The only downside to this, is I'm up until 3:00 or 4:00 in the morning because now I'm amped! I don't go before work for the simple fact that I'm a freak about showers and I'd be carrying around a wet towel with me to work or leaving one in my car. Gross. 

I suppose I should stop making excuses and just do it. Then again...I do need new sneakers. I always need new sneakers. That will be my excuse to buy them, so I can have them at the gym. If you give a mouse a cookie...now I guess that means I can look into buying a new ipod? LOL

No, but really...VITAMINS VITAMINS VITAMINS! I need to take my damn vitamins! 

I'm melting, melting!

YAY!

The office has been a little weird lately. I showed up for my appointment last time and it was magically closed. There was a note on the door apologizing for any inconvenience but they closed due to an illness. Not that I was particularly heart broken, I was for sure I gained weight. According to my scale that week, I had put on about four pounds I'm sure of. That's why my New York trip was a wee bit scary, I was hoping that I'd lose it!

My wish came true! I lost the four pounds I put back on, no problem. I'm not really surprised. I made sure I was extra careful about what I ate, and I got tons of exercise in! I'm super happy about that! 

I feel like this whole experience has been a really positive one in my life. Things are finally starting to sink in totally, the lessons that I've been taught at the office. My life is definitely more enjoyable than it was before, because my comfort level has increased. I encourage everyone I talk to, to at least check Aviva out if they're interested. Cody even gave me a free shot this week of Lipotonix because I refer so many patients to the office! She also gave me a stack of cards to carry. They have a really great program for referrals. If you refer someone, it's $25 credit for you AND the new patient! Awesomeness!

This program is costly, however I don't mind paying for it one bit. You can't put a price on your health, and it's given me back so much of my life and then some. My confidence is slowly starting to increase, and I feel like I'm evolving into the person that I was meant to be all along. It's really great to have such encouraging support around me all the time, and I will continue to do my best! I'm determined to melt away another five pounds this week--so I'll be back in the 170 range! That's a huge feat for me, considering I haven't weighed anywhere in the 170's since my last year of high school! Super excited for that!

Wind down

My week long trip to NYC was exhausting.

I pretty much lounged around today before I met up with some friends for dinner. Jacki and I had our hearts set on this local Italian place to eat, but alas they are closed on Mondays. It's okay, we'll go again another time. We all decided on meeting at Texas Roadhouse. It was a lot of fun, I got to catch up with the girls and we had a great time!

Rhonda was also in town, so I was glad I got to catch up with her a bit. We ended up going to Barnes and Noble and chit chatted over in the Starbucks area. She's definitely smaller than she was last time, but then again we are the incredible shrinking women aren't we?! 

Not too much to blog about tonight, just having a relaxing day to get all of the city out I suppose. I've been stretching my legs everyday, they're tired from all the walking I did in the city. On top of it, the girls convinced me to go to this crazy Asian massage place to get foot massages at. Big mistake. It was uncomfortable but I didn't yelp in pain during it...I had lots of pain after. The top of my right foot is bruised and so are my legs. OUCH. Definitely not going back there again, I feel like I totally got owned LOL!

Happy Father's Day!

Happy Father's Day to all the fathers out there!

I was still in NYC this morning, and it's Father's Day. Hien and I slept in, and we both really needed it. My legs were super sore when I got up, so before we went out I made sure I stretched. We went to this little Italian place in her neighborhood and had a nice lunch together. It's been a really good time with her, and I'm enjoying and cherishing out sister bonding together. There was a time a few years ago when we hated each other. It was so difficult for us to get along. Her living away has strengthened our relationship and bond together, and I'm really lucky to have a sister like her. Even when she does drive me crazy!

Dad doesn't get home until about 1:00pm. He had to work night shift this weekend, and I wanted to make sure I caught him when he got home. We gave him a quick call and caught up a bit.

My dad is one of the most important people in my life. He has taught me just about everything I know, and I am very fortunate to have a man like that in my life. I have been blessed with a near perfect childhood and have never been short on love in my life. My dad is my best friend. I tell him pretty much everything. He's the one person that can explain anything to me, gives me great advice and never stops supporting me. I've always been super close with my dad but I wouldn't consider myself a "daddy's girl". He didn't spoil me the way other daughters get spoiled I suppose. My lessons he taught me of Independence,  lessons on pride and what's right and wrong, work ethic and what it's like to have meaning in your life. My dad came to this country as a young man who didn't speak a lick of English. He brings the word "American" to true justice and is every part of it. He struggled, worked and continues to work hard, he gives back to others in any way that he can, and he participates in taking pride in his home, family and country. My dad is a true hero.

I wish that everyone could experience a father like him. He's more than just part of the reason why I exist. He's ever so much present in my character, who I am as a person and how my life has turned out. My dad made giant sacrifices for me and rest of the family so we could truly live and knows what it means to live. There is no other living person that could ever replace him in my life...and no one needs to. Happy Father's Day dad! I love you!

Central Park perk...

perk after the non perked part!

Have I mentioned I've had a lot of "firsts" this week? First drive into NYC, first time confident in navigating the subway, first baseball game in the city, first time tripping up the subway, and first time puking at brunch? YUP. You read correctly. I've been continuing to take my Metformin and Tricor like a good girl. I've battled having episodes of nausea, but this was freaking ridiculous. I'm always paranoid that I'll get sick on trips like these. This was seriously something else. I took my meds before I left home with a handful of cheerios. I know they say not to take meds on an empty stomach, but trust me I get SERIOUSLY sick when I DO have food in my stomach an hour to half hour before I take these pills. I have to eat right after I take them, or so I thought.

Han wanted to go to this French Macaroon place in the Upper East Side. We got off the train and began walking and I was fine. On our climb up SEVERAL stair cases, I was towards the last hike when I BIFFED IT. I FELL UP THE STAIRS. UGH! I totally fell into this lady's bag as she was walking down them. Everyone stopped and asked if I was okay, and of course I was but I had to hurry and get up! Didn't want to just stand there and hold up stair traffic! It wasn't until we got to the store when I started feeling off. I took one step into that shop and immediately got nauseated from the sweet smells in there. It was sunny and hot but there was a nice breeze. I stood outside trying to stop myself from dry heaving in front of everyone on Madison Avenue. When the girls came back out, they noticed I was breathing funny. We went to a small cafe near, and they made me eat some bread and chug orange juice and a bottle of water. Nausea with these medications are no big surprise, this is something I've been dealing with for a while. I sat and drank my liquids and picked at the bread. Han and Hien both lectured me, and I really felt like they were too concerned. My regiment has nothing to do with me getting nauseous. The Metformin has funny ways of working. My blood sugar just dropped and started to make me dry heave. It's something I go through on a weekly basis with his crap. Whitney arrived, and we set out to find a place for brunch. We ordered our food, and it came.  Everything looked great, but me. I ate a few bites of my scrambled eggs, and couldn't force myself to swallow them. Something was definitely wrong. The girls just kept looking at me, and I said I just needed to digest. It felt like I had to burp from all the drinks I took in, but I wasn't sure. I quickly sat up in the middle of brunch and scurried downstairs to the bathroom. 

Let me tell you what. The girl who was in the bathroom just before I went in, was lucky she got out of my way in time. If she hadn't been out while I was running to get in, I totally would have puked all over the floor. I'm pretty fast. On my way down, I tied my hair back. I swung the bathroom door open, locked the bitched and kicked the toilet seat up with my foot. AND THEN IT HAPPENED. Mt. St. Thao blew. I puked about three times before it finally stopped. It was all orange juice and the water I drank. I took my medications about two to three hours before I yacked, so I knew it got into my system okay. When I was sure I was done, I cleaned myself up and headed back to the dining room. Who the hell can eat after throwing up?! I sure as hell can't. There it happened again. Another meal wasted. The girls picked at my food and I tried to eat some of it, but couldn't bring myself to finish it. I honestly can say I felt 110% better after I threw up! No lie!

After that whole fiasco, we left and decided to check out Central Park. I had no big shopping plans when I went to the city this time, so I was more interested in getting my exercise in. Hien and Whitney swear that I'm moving a lot faster and better in the city than I used to. It was nice to also hear the girls say that I shrunk a lot, yay! We walked around the park for about two hours. My favorite part of it was the Conservatory Gardens. There are three gardens in Central Park that are designed in different fashions. Italian, French and British. Each feature a fountain of some sort, and a lovely display of flowers. It was a great day! Han had to head back to Brooklyn, and so it was just the three of us. We went back to Chelsea and got our nails done. After we hit up some stores and grabbed sushi for dinner. It was FANTASTIC. Actually, I think my new favorite place for sushi in the city---it was that good! I had a bowl of miso soup and half of my sushi roll and shared the rest. Whitney had to also be getting home, but I was really happy she made time to see me. 

I don't think people realize how stressful city life is. The fact that you have to add in time for travel and navigation kind of sucks. I'm so spoiled by having a car. It's really easy for me to just hop in and go. Working in different industries there absorb a lot of your time, and at the end of the day when you just want to relax---you really can't! It is craziness! I was super happy that I got to spend the rest of the night with my sister. She's had a really busy month and I'm glad I was there to chop things up a bit. I'm always good for a laugh you know! One way or the other! :P