Reflections

Where did this year go?

:Time is a thief, that is never caught:

I really hope that everyone had a good holiday season. With the turn of the year coming up, I can hardly see how next year can't be so promising. It's been a giant wild adventure, my life up until now. Full of so many triumphs, set backs, disappointments, and pick me ups. What people don't understand about me, is the fact that it's taken so many meltdowns in order for me to keep calm in giant moments of crisis. 

I've never really been one to give in, or give up. I don't accept things very easily, because I am a scientist. I was built to ask questions and to find answers. To spend my days questioning, experimenting and pushing the boundaries and limits on all things in life. It's who I am, and the face that I'm an extremely tenacious person sometimes doesn't help. It's ridiculous and fucking foolish for anyone of us to think that our days aren't numbered. They are.

Changing your life, is fucking scary. So scary that it cripples people. I'm not saying to fly by the seat of your pants, but don't sit on the sidelines and watch everyone else play ball. It takes the strongest of wills to change their course, to dare to break cycles. That's what my weight loss and personal transformation is all about. Breaking cycles. It is not one cataclysmic even that brings us into peril. It is the combined events of small obstacles and repetitive behaviors that destroy us. They keep us suffocated, drowning, gasping for air. 

I'm in the process of mentoring people into creating a healthier lifestyle. Whether it be physical health, mental or spiritual. For some odd reason, people gravitate towards me. Complete strangers off sidewalks and in parks reach out to strike up conversation with me. Maybe it's because I have a friendly face, or have good ears for listening, maybe it's because I have something to offer. In a world where struggles and setbacks will literally kick down your door, it's nice to know that you're not alone. 

So no matter what war you're faced with, know that you're not as alone or as incapable as you think you are.

You are what you seek. 

I'm encouraging my readers, my friends, my families to really think about what they want their lives to be. What they would like to achieve, how they'd like to live. Dig deep and find out what you really fucking want, or what you're really fucking worth. Why go through all of these repetitious periods of chaos, when you can LEARN something from it. Repeat offenders are continuous offenders because they didn't learn anything. Take what you can from situations and people, and apply those lessons to your life. Through helping others, you help yourself. Speaking from a woman who was horribly overweight, literally carried the weight of so many others on her shoulders, was completely lost, grasping at straws...it's possible to DEAL. Possible to deal with things in a healthy effective manner. Face those demons, kick their fucking asses and start living your dream of a freer life. A better life.

A healthy mind, and healthy body is something money can't buy. 

Do the work, and I promise you won't regret it.